sobrang late naman na ata

under construction yung multiply site ko. i half abandoned dramatista.multiply.com for some reasons beyond my control tsaka dhail gusto ko lang. lol. you can now find me in karenderya.multiply.com. bakya na kung bakya pero para sa kin cute naman yung play ng word. anyway, hindi pa rin yun complete pero dun na ako ngaun nguupload ng mga bagongs posts. so for the meantime, im writing this thru my fishdrownedinwater.blogspot.com site. hectic. feeling sikat. nyahaha.

antagal na nung huling post ko, bukod dun sa mga imported entries from my friendster site. kaya siguro napupuno na naman yung utak ko ng mga walang sense na bagay, kaya kagaya ng pensieve ni Dumbledore, kelangan bawasan ng onti, saan pa ilalagay kundi syemps dito.

may 2 buwan na ako halos nalipat ng account. from WaMu, transfer na ang lola mo sa Manila Federal Sales. First batch, ako lang yung supervisor under training. nakakaculture shock kasi sobrang onti lang ng tao, kumpara sa pinaggalingan ko, na limampu halos kaming supervisor, hagard talaga ngaun.

me mga hindi masyadong mgandang nagyari sa training na ikinapangamba ng kaseguruhan ng trabaho namin, pero until then, enjoy muna while it lasts.

Nakaadjust na rin ako sa mga tao kong kasama pero andun pa rin yung namimiss mo yung mga dati mong ginagawa ksama yung mga kebigan mong kebs ang din sa mundo ang drama. he he. pressured ngaun kasi lahat ng mata nakatingin seo. Parang konting galaw mo eh me masasabi sayo. pero dahil kebs lang ako sa sasabihin nila, ayos lang.

pero ngayun, habang sinusulat ko ito. sa ilang buwan naming pagsasama nung bago kong kapamilya, mas iknalungkot ko dahil:

-alam akong hindi magtatagal, sigurado akong mawwipe out kaming lahat; kundi matapos ung kontrata, baka materminate kami.
-maghihiwa-hiwalay kami kapag natapos ang ramp. karamihan uuwi ng baguio dahil andun talaga ang site nila. kami andito lang s maynila.
-na kung kelan gamay mo na yung account, pati mga tao, sooner than later, mawawala din ang lahat ng ito. kaya kailangan ding paghandaan yun.

higit sa lahat, ngaun naguguluhan ako. college pa ko nung naalala kong huling sumagi sa akin ang gantong pakiramdam. pero imbes na matuwa ako, naguluhan akong bigla.
hindi pwede. dahil maling tao. at maling pagkakataon.
sobrang late na ba para magkaron ng mga ganitong klaseng krisis?

post-something depression (probably caused by the recession...he he..rhyming...)

things i realized over the weekend (and some sidelights):

- Celine Dion is (was) my all time favorite artist; I watched her A New Day... performance and was awed. Or maybe awed is the understatement of the year.

- Celine Dion is my all time favorite artist; I was browsing through my aged autographs back in gradeschool, and there, written all over, was her name, Celine Dion, Favorite Singer.

- Celine Dion is my all time favorite artist; most especially because she sang "My Heart Will Go On" which happens to be the love theme of the film Titanic, which I watched 7 times in theatres back in 1998. (the first time I watched it, in Megamall, last full show, forgetting that the next day was my high school entrance exam in UST high. I got accepted though. My last name was the only one listed under letter "R")

- Celine Dion is my all time favorite artist; and after watching A New Day..., i realized I was having my post-Celine Dion depression.

- And I realized, after recognizing it, that whenever I get the chance to watch something extravagant, spectacular and "too big for my eyes" performances, I get depressed. I dunno how a post-partum depression feels but I bet it's somehow similar (hihee)...

- that I also had post-Loren Legarda depression, post-Meryl Streep depression, post-Mamma Mia depression, post-Sisterhood-of-the-Travelling-Pants-because-of-the-Santorini-location depression, post-EDSA-One-file-footage watching depression, post-Hacienda-Luisita-massacre-footage-watching depression...

haaay...how the great psychotic mind works...