haha.
oo naman.
Sa birthday ko, marami akong hiningi, pero hindi ako umasang may darating.
Mahirap ang buhay ngayon.
Minsan pa nga nadedebit ang account mo ng lecheng bangko mo sa bisperas mismo ng kaarawan mo.
Pero, matatanggap mo rin yun, matapos mong matulog at makaligo.
Marerealize mo na,
yung mga taong nagmamahal sa yo,
mamahalin ka pa rin at babatiin sa birthday mo,
pakainin mo man sila o hindi.
salamat sa mga sumusunod:
-kay mariah, sa jansport na bag
-sa mga ahente ko, *hindi ko alam kung sinu-sino silang nag-ambagan* sa havaianas IPE at sa red ribbon na cake.
at sa mga nagrereview para sa nursing board exam na pumunta sa opis ng alas dose ng gabi para batiin ako, na kung saan ntouch ako ng patal na patal.
-kay brosia, sa replica ng nikon dlsr at sa hello kitty na binalot nia at tinali ng electrical tape, at sa vintage na card na may cheesyng sulat
-kay tina, at sa mga taga-psc na sumulat ng notes at greetings gamit ang mga papel ni jary.
-kay nanay joycie, isa sa mga last kong iisipin na makakalaala dahil sa gap namin nuon.
-sa lahat ng bumati,
-kay mamai sa paggawa nung powerpoint at paggreet ng napakaaga-- ala singko ng umaga ng Sept 15. *eh sept 16 yung birthday ko eh*
ayun yun eh.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Note to Self, from Myself: Floundering, Groping and Still Learning at 24
A few hours before I turned 24, I was thinking that this is going to be my happiest birthday ever (for some reasons which I would try to keep to myself) until my China Bank payroll account debited all my salary and left me with money just about enough to buy prepaid credits so I may be able to respond to those who have greeted me on the 15th, which is not my birthday, it's actually September 16. But having been able to work in a bank before, I naturally understand what these tellers were going through. BUt just the same, aside from the the cliche, "tao lang ako at natural lang ang magalit" I also have, "birthday ko kase bukas eh, birthday ko!". But enough of the emoness, I think, Mang Jessie still has other plans for me for this day.
I have come up with a few thoughts over the year, and over the years. I'm sharing these, for posterity pa rin. lol x.
I do not intend to preach, I am telling and reminding these things I've learned to myself, so bawal mambasag ng trip. Birthday ko ngayon, birthday mo ba? *peace*
* I should keep my mouth shut. It pays to be able to speak your mind-- but not necessarily at all times. There are some instances that you better shut it unless you have something beneficial to say. Remember the Rotary Club Four Way Test?
* There are some things that should be posted on fishdrownedinwater.blogspot.com and karenderya.multiply.com that are worth sharing with the world. There are also some things that should only be kept in your mind. When you open your life to everyone, you become vulnerable thus easily accused, judged, misconstrued. Reserve some for your journal.
* When you decide to assume two roles at the same time, assess if you can be both at your best for both roles. You cannot use the other as an excuse for being mediocre on the other. You have to be at your best for both roles and if you think you can't, then drop the other.
* If you have to choose between two equally beautiful options, choose the one which you think you won't regret; but since you won't regret something until it's actually done, you'll never really know what it is. So heed to the cliche: FOLLOW YOUR HEART. It may not be logical at all times and your society may not accept it at times but if it's what makes you happy, it still matters.
* Sometimes, in real life, professing your feelings towards someone does not guarantee you with happy endings and ever afters. On worse days, it can even lead to losing friendships due to miscalculation of the person's ability to understand things beyond the normal, so unless you are 100% sure of what you are bound to do and lose eventually, HOLD IT OFF. Enjoy each encounters. And LOVE, just the same.
* Do not put labels on all things around you-- from my very close friend Ma-an, most especially on relationships. They become restricted. You set up certain roles that you want them to assume and when they fail, without them knowing it, to live up to the labels and roles you constructed, you get disappointed. Things can stay as they are and you can still or may still be happy about it.
* never speak ill of the person na nakaway mo. baka mahalin mo sya ulet, tas mahirap mo na ibalik yung dati.
* and That being busy, miserable, happy, in love, bitter and insecure are always a choice.
Ayun.
Bukod dun, I am also thankful sa mga sumusunod:
Kay Mang Jessie, na bagamat yung last kong simba ay nung Baccalaureate pa namin nung college, hindi niya pa rin ako kinakalimutan. Feeling ko nga, reverse psych ito. He showers all these blessings para makonsensya ako at magsimba na. lol x *peace tayu jan*
Sa UPFI, sa pagtanggap at sa dami ng absences at lates ko.
Sa transition team ko, that although I am barely seen and heard, kahit sa spam, alam ko anjan lang sila sa paligid ligid. Ni hindi ko nga kailangan magexplain.
Sa fortywinks, na walang ngrereply kasi badtrip na ata lahat sa kin dahil hndi na ako nagpapakita sa mahabang panahon;
Sa pamilya ko,
Sa Manila at Baguio Federal Sales Team, kasi masaya ang buhay. Maraming reasons para maging masaya. At hndi mo kailangang magconform sa lipunan para matupad ito.
Kay Mamai, kasi... at tsaka... at higit sa lahat... ayun. ganun ka eh. kaya thank you. at dahil alam mo, na sa mga panahon na hindi masyadong abundant ang swerte at happiness, kung gaano kaimportante ito sa akin lalo na kapag galing seo >> *hug*
Happy Birthday Karen.
*sniff*
I have come up with a few thoughts over the year, and over the years. I'm sharing these, for posterity pa rin. lol x.
I do not intend to preach, I am telling and reminding these things I've learned to myself, so bawal mambasag ng trip. Birthday ko ngayon, birthday mo ba? *peace*
* I should keep my mouth shut. It pays to be able to speak your mind-- but not necessarily at all times. There are some instances that you better shut it unless you have something beneficial to say. Remember the Rotary Club Four Way Test?
* There are some things that should be posted on fishdrownedinwater.blogspot.com and karenderya.multiply.com that are worth sharing with the world. There are also some things that should only be kept in your mind. When you open your life to everyone, you become vulnerable thus easily accused, judged, misconstrued. Reserve some for your journal.
* When you decide to assume two roles at the same time, assess if you can be both at your best for both roles. You cannot use the other as an excuse for being mediocre on the other. You have to be at your best for both roles and if you think you can't, then drop the other.
* If you have to choose between two equally beautiful options, choose the one which you think you won't regret; but since you won't regret something until it's actually done, you'll never really know what it is. So heed to the cliche: FOLLOW YOUR HEART. It may not be logical at all times and your society may not accept it at times but if it's what makes you happy, it still matters.
* Sometimes, in real life, professing your feelings towards someone does not guarantee you with happy endings and ever afters. On worse days, it can even lead to losing friendships due to miscalculation of the person's ability to understand things beyond the normal, so unless you are 100% sure of what you are bound to do and lose eventually, HOLD IT OFF. Enjoy each encounters. And LOVE, just the same.
* Do not put labels on all things around you-- from my very close friend Ma-an, most especially on relationships. They become restricted. You set up certain roles that you want them to assume and when they fail, without them knowing it, to live up to the labels and roles you constructed, you get disappointed. Things can stay as they are and you can still or may still be happy about it.
* never speak ill of the person na nakaway mo. baka mahalin mo sya ulet, tas mahirap mo na ibalik yung dati.
* and That being busy, miserable, happy, in love, bitter and insecure are always a choice.
Ayun.
Bukod dun, I am also thankful sa mga sumusunod:
Kay Mang Jessie, na bagamat yung last kong simba ay nung Baccalaureate pa namin nung college, hindi niya pa rin ako kinakalimutan. Feeling ko nga, reverse psych ito. He showers all these blessings para makonsensya ako at magsimba na. lol x *peace tayu jan*
Sa UPFI, sa pagtanggap at sa dami ng absences at lates ko.
Sa transition team ko, that although I am barely seen and heard, kahit sa spam, alam ko anjan lang sila sa paligid ligid. Ni hindi ko nga kailangan magexplain.
Sa fortywinks, na walang ngrereply kasi badtrip na ata lahat sa kin dahil hndi na ako nagpapakita sa mahabang panahon;
Sa pamilya ko,
Sa Manila at Baguio Federal Sales Team, kasi masaya ang buhay. Maraming reasons para maging masaya. At hndi mo kailangang magconform sa lipunan para matupad ito.
Kay Mamai, kasi... at tsaka... at higit sa lahat... ayun. ganun ka eh. kaya thank you. at dahil alam mo, na sa mga panahon na hindi masyadong abundant ang swerte at happiness, kung gaano kaimportante ito sa akin lalo na kapag galing seo >> *hug*
Happy Birthday Karen.
*sniff*
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
namimiss? ikaw? hinde no.
kanina lang kumain ako mag-isa ng creme brulee cupcake;
yung madalas kong dala para sa yo
na mas lamang ang hati mo palagi,
naalala mo?
kanina
yung cupcake--
hinati ko sa dalawa,
nung paubos na yung akin,
kinain ko na rin yung hinati ko para sa yo.
naalala ko
wala ka na nga pala
wala nang kakain nun.
09.09.09
sa station ko
yung madalas kong dala para sa yo
na mas lamang ang hati mo palagi,
naalala mo?
kanina
yung cupcake--
hinati ko sa dalawa,
nung paubos na yung akin,
kinain ko na rin yung hinati ko para sa yo.
naalala ko
wala ka na nga pala
wala nang kakain nun.
09.09.09
sa station ko
Amparisms: Operative Term
minsan lang akong makapuntos sa kanya. dapat ma-chronicle un. hehe.
Amparo: i have the laptop na
Amparo: nasa guard
Karen Raagas: thanks.
Karen Raagas: bangag ka pa ren?
Amparo logged out at 11:41:06 AM.
Amparo logged in at 11:51:02 AM.
Karen Raagas: parang u look better na today
Amparo: *hug* thank you
Karen Raagas: although u are still bangag
Karen Raagas: *basag*
Amparo: :(
Amparo: yeah- but im on my way there
Amparo: to my old gorgeous self
Amparo: *wink*
Karen Raagas: old
Amparo: :(
Karen Raagas: operative term
Karen Raagas: lol x
Amparo: i have the laptop na
Amparo: nasa guard
Karen Raagas: thanks.
Karen Raagas: bangag ka pa ren?
Amparo logged out at 11:41:06 AM.
Amparo logged in at 11:51:02 AM.
Karen Raagas: parang u look better na today
Amparo: *hug* thank you
Karen Raagas: although u are still bangag
Karen Raagas: *basag*
Amparo: :(
Amparo: yeah- but im on my way there
Amparo: to my old gorgeous self
Amparo: *wink*
Karen Raagas: old
Amparo: :(
Karen Raagas: operative term
Karen Raagas: lol x
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